Abuse

I married to a man in 2017 in an arrange marriage after that fir 4-5 months he was good but after that he started to beat me for silly reasons then he made me concieved i told him i am not prepared to be a mother he fought a lot and made me concieved before the day of delivery my baby died in my womb because he had sex with me but i was trying to adjust in my relationship within 4-5 months he again got me concieved and within a lap of 3 years i had two babies till date he earns nothing i only earn he abuse me orally mentally physically he only drinks and wanted to became a bhai. Because of him i left the house for one week without knowing anyone but i know my kids will suffer so i returned back. I asked him for divorce but after coming back and asking for divorce he started blaming me for having extra maritial affair and one day he choked my throat with his napkin and tried to kill me and told me you are not going to do anything we r married and i wont leave u like this u die then i will leave u i wont divorce you i will torture u day and night sexually how selfish u can be even i want to see telling me such words what should i do i dont have parents from my side i dont have savings no jwellery nothing right now no job also please help me?