Marriage Issues

Namaste.. I got married (Arranged) 18 months back. I am the only child of my parents and sole bread earner. My marriage is not registered. Presently I am staying with my parents from past 1.5 months. Meanwhile I am working as a Freelance Trainer from September, 2023. With me, it is the 2nd marriage of my husband (widower). He is a Central Government Employee (KVK, Nawada). We are into an unhappy relationship. Everyone knows that Initial 2 years forms the "Neev of the Marriage". There is too much 3rd Party influence in my marriage. Hum dono ke andar attachment aane nhi diya.. Although I developed emotions for him, his emotions faded as his mind got deviated. Right from the very beginning, his 1st family people started interfering in our personal life by calling almost everyday/ alternate day to deviate his mind from me. I tried to understand everyone's emotional attachment but later got to know that too many things were hid by them during our marriage. He married exactly within 1 year of her death. They wanted a housewife only. Even small issues related are highlighted by them as a blunder. Still I want to save my marriage. Even if I visited my place (Patna) for medical (UTI/Difficulty in conceving, etc) they tortured me that I don't live with my husband. My partner never supports me. They want him to get married again to a different girl just because he has a Govt Job by declaring me mental.. My husband also has a connection with a married woman (SC/ST). When I raised my voice, I was harassed physically and mentally by him. I got to know all these things by checking his phone and setting a recording.. Sorry, I had no other option. As he broke my trust by hiding too many things and revealing his uncanny behaviour. Wo saamne kuch aur hain and peechhe kuch aur.. He seems to be innocent, but he is not. My Mother-in-Law never supported me. So, I started living at both the places and searching for a job too.. My husband and in-laws are located in a rural area whereby jobs related to my qualification cannot be done. Moreover they don't want me too look after my parents because I'm married now. He has no self realization, feeling for me.. I feel very hurt and cheated. He wants divorce. I am feeling mentally disturbed. I curse and scream because I can't express. Still I don't want to divorce him. Asking for basic care, attachment, emotions, love, understanding from his side means I am very demanding. They are very Orthodox family. Please suggest any remedy, if he forcibly takes the matter to the court. People have suggested him to get a bond paper signed in case I want to live with him. He wants to declare me mentally unstable..