Mental abuse

Hi i got married 2.5 year ago ,i stay in joint family with my husband , borther in laws family and mother in law. I got married to my cousin and Right after week or so after marriage my mother in law always pressurized me about work , lot of other things there was constant comparison with my brother in law's wife . But when there are situations like my mother in law ,I'm alone she is saying things which are not so pleasant.later after 6 months to 9 months she says and tells somethings , when the situation come about that particular conversation ,she denies that she didn't said or told me anything ,on top of it get is ready to have an argument with me everytime even though i stay silent and i don't argue back i just cry because there nothing i can do ,i feel very helpless ,suffocated and feels like I'm going mad . I don't why she blames evrthing on me .i got feed and i went to my home for some occasions and decided that i not go back to that place and put myself in that situation again . whenever my husband call me and ask me about when Ill get back ,by thinking of that i got panic attack. And my husband don't supports me or stop his mother if she is mentally torturing he just ignores everything and mind his own business even though i share each and everything she did to he tell me to adjust , every day mental harassment and crying everyday thing for me at that place . however i left the house after 1 year of living there ,my husband use to drink verbally abuse and also says that its all my mistake for the situation there are facing now ,as I'm not at their house .i asked him move out from there as i don't want to stay with her and bare all things anymore but my husband doesn't wants to leave that house and requested in phone come home back few times and sometimes blame me for everything , and sometimes agreed that what had happened is there mistake but still I'm don't believe them because they only make little changes when I get feed up and leave the home for a while and take a break from it happened twice before this . Its so cheap that my mother in law is not even agreed for a mineral water can for me as the water we have house I'm unable to drink it kind of allergy in my throat by them , they only agreed after 3 months of my marriage and that too there was lot of small things going like this and I'm fed up by that .fyi this just an example that what exactly she do to me. And our is love marriage but my husband prefer everything over me family, friends,job everything