Divorce

Dear Lawyers, I am married since 9 years, since almost 3 years I and my husband are not in good terms. And since almost an year we are not living as husband and wife. Couple of months before he has asked me for Divorce. I took time to decide on and now I have also decided to go ahead with divorce. He is not agreeing to it now. Instead, he is telling he would accept his mistakes and improve. Every time this fight used to happen he is been telling the same and never stuck to it. Now I dont have confidence in him that he will change and I also made up my mind that I want divorce. Now the child is with him. I am at parents place but they are also not supporting me now and asking me to go back to my marital place. Please guide me how to proceed ahead with divorce. I dont know if court gives me justice as I dont have any evidences. I am talking to a lawyer but the lawyer is asking for evidences for proceeding with contested divorce or to convince my husband for a mutual divorce. I dont think he will agree as I used to do a lot of help to the family including take care of home monthly expenses(I am working) and Child's education, taking care of him etc.,. Now that I have to fight alone for my life and peace of mind. I dont have any evidence to prove that I have been undergoing this mental trauma but all these while I have succumbed everything. Please guide me to move ahead with divorce as he is not agreeing to it and I am not ready to lead this life anymore.