married life

Mera naam shabana hy my husband Shamshuddin and my parents meri shaadi karwaye with dowry and all in 2010. My husband is starting as welder and now painter he is a drunker and I have two female child 5,3yrs I was staying in their family I'm home maker and I'm working as a maid saas bahu ki ladai toh Thoda bahut common hy but my husband was not spend money on me but I manage spending on children it's ok and my husband has no value in their house too he was a drunker and mere father ny hy bhai log k paas jati my myka and there only I spent my some days like holidays and return back and mera husband mujhe bahut doubts feeling rakta tha q k I would not sleep and have weekly twice intercourse even he knows I have problem infection in vagina (swollen type infection) from a week after coming from my brother house he came to pickup and take home after one day started abusive words ,beating and beating in front of my sasur and throw back my sasur he comes in middle and he is torturing me to get out with children tomorrow is seating arrangement with my family and his family what decision they take don't know but I don't want to live with him more the doubts can't be cleared and don't know what happen to children they can't live without me please any suggestions and decision guzarish ache se plan kya karna agey ab