Nri divorce

I got married this year and after a month my fatherin law got drunk and told me to get out of the house since i didnt know indian traditions after which i call up a family member and leave. After a few days we learnt no one was interested in calling me back. And then i learnt i was pregnant. No one was happy either. My parents kept goinng to resolve the matter but nothing happened and one fine day the boy humiliated/ harassed me over call and left me. I was deeply shattered since i was deeply in love with him and he had no apparent reason to leave me and soon after a week i had a painful miscarriage. Since we dont live in the country my parents didnt want to indulde in the law matters that takes years and all the harassment. So i forcefully had to sign the memorandum. Now its been 6 months already and i am not in india but i am in mental trauma still and on medications. I still cannot accept this fact and give him what he wants ( divorce ). Pls suggest me what to do now. I cant bear this pain further. Thank u.