In offences of this nature, especially under Section 376 IPC, detailed order sheets are often not fully reflected on public portals due to sensitivity, though basic case status appears. It is also correct that once coercive processes like NBW are issued under the Code of Criminal Procedure, 1973, your personal appearance becomes crucial.
The repeated issuance of NBW strongly indicates that the court considers you to be absconding. If proclamation proceedings under Sections 82-83 CrPC have been initiated or completed, you may indeed be treated as a proclaimed offender, which significantly worsens your legal position.
At this stage, the risk of arrest is real and immediate. Once NBW is in force, the police can arrest you at any time. Anticipatory bail is legally maintainable, but practically difficult where NBW has already been issued and especially if proclamation proceedings have begun, courts often view this as evasion of process. The position has been discussed in cases like Lavesh v. State (NCT of Delhi), where the Supreme Court of India held that relief under anticipatory bail is generally not granted to an absconding accused. Therefore, while filing for anticipatory bail before the Sessions Court or even the High Court is an option, success depends on how convincingly you explain your absence and demonstrate willingness to cooperate.
Practically, the most realistic course, though difficult, is to regularize your appearance. This usually means either (i) moving anticipatory bail urgently with full disclosure and appearing through counsel, or (ii) surrendering before the trial court and immediately applying for regular bail. Courts are often more inclined to grant bail when the accused shows bona fide by surrendering rather than evading. You may also approach the High Court seeking interim protection or a stay of arrest, but that is not easily granted in serious offences. At this stage, continuing to remain absent will only aggravate matters; your priority should be to come within the legal process in a controlled manner with a proper legal strategy.