Mental harrasment by in laws and husband

I got married to my husband in nov 21 and it was through matrimony. We never met each other and he directly said yes. He is very sensitive and emotional. He told me everything about his past. I could not tel him and my past was toxic. I had physical relationship with 2 guys before marriage. Before one month of marriage, there were certain financial issues with the two families. They were not financially capable and all the family members have been into depression before. They wanted money may be from us as we were from upper middle class family. Just before one month of marriage, his father has asked money for registry and furniture. He also asked my family to share my medical certificate. But how can they just ask one month before to us. When we had done roka 5 months before to it. Just 15 days were left and they were ready to postponed the marriage. They had harass a lot of us to me and my family at that time. After my marriage, my in laws were diet conscious and they never let us allowed to enter home after 9 pm. We never went outside at night. It was very much torture living there. Just after 2 months we shifted to gurgaon for our jobs. But my husband never came to me physically. Every time, I only initiated it. Sometime I also felt bad that why everytime I had to go. I tried discussing with him. But it didn't affect him. And one day he told me to go to Chandigarh and live with his parents for some time and he still was in Gurgaon. He is very close to his mother. He used to call everyday to his mother but never replied to my msg. Just used to call once in two days. I was not comfortable living in Chandigarh. And my husband also was not able to understand my situation. I was very lonely. At that time I talked to my ex that I was missing him and had some adult chat with him. Which later on my husband read it and as he was very sensitive. He could not handle that and went to pyscatrist for therapy. I was not aware of this. After that he called my parents and told everything in from of them and his parents also. But after my roka and marriage, I just had a conversation on chat. I never met those and didn't call them after my marriage. I said sry many times and assured him that it will not happen again in future. It just happened as i was lonely and didn't have him to talk and understand my situation. Nobody told anything to him, but blamed me for everything. I love him and wanted to live with him only. But he wants seperation from me. But I cannot live without him. I have tried to explain and convince him, but he is not ready to listen to me. I am into depression and it's very difficult for me to handle all this. Every one is with me and blaming me for all this. But nobody thought from a women's point of view and just after marriage a women needs physical love from his husband.i have filed RCR case but he is not ready to keep me with him and also not giving maintainence. Pls help me