Signed for mutual consent but want to save the marriage now

I and my husband has regular arguments from the beginning of the marriage. We are now staying separate for 10 months. He asked for mutual divorce and when I agreed, he said he want to stay together. I was very depressed due to the torture episodes of my marriage. During this 10 months, he switched between getting divorce and saving marriage. I was very confused due to this behaviour. I could not understand whether I should give a chance or wait. Finally I agreed to my parents that let the elders meet and discuss on our issues. He also agreed but then he got scared and abused me and my father. He fled from his place. When he finally sent mutual consent draft, I got scared and filed petition myself. He then kept trying to take back the case but I did not fearing that he will be troublesome in future. Then we both filed for mutual divorce. We then told some of our relatives and I heard many stories of reconciliation and we should not divorce if there is confusion about anything. So, my sister connected with him to discuss our issues again. I also tried to connect to him to think again and may be stay together during cooling period of 6 months to check if there is any hope. He first denied but after we appeared before judge, he also got convinced that we can all meet again. After, we got date for counselling, he denied again thinking that my u turn to save the marriage involves some plan to spoil his career which I explained to him that I am ready to give my statement on stamp paper that it is genuine try to my side to fix our issues if possible. My father connected with his mother to that let the children start fresh once for their future. She bluntly refused and talked very rough. I think my husband wants to save but his mother is making prestige issue and I and my family wants to reconsider the option to save marriage. What should I do to withdraw consent? If I refuse for mutual consent on grounds of saving marriage during first counselling, what will happen?