I cant accept that I am his legally wedded wife

My husband disappeared on me in 2013.after missing complaint his family forced me to sign 100rs bond of seperation.they used constable working on missing complaint to threaten me.and that constable did his job very well.he told me that if I dont sign that bond my husband is going to committ suicide and his parents are going to file complaint against our whole family.after signing that bond my husband disappeared. I tried to contact him to solve problem.but he refused to recognise me.so I filed 498a.in that case whole famly refused to recognise me and has submitted affidavit that they even dont know me.so I filed dv.in dv court declared that I am his legally wedded wife and I am victim of domestic violence. they approached for mediation.i refused mediation.since 2013 they have defamed me.they are making very bad allegations, questioning my character, my dignity.but now I have to play my role as complaint in 498a.i am feeling like it is total injustice towards me to fight this case as his wife as I completely understood that he has just used me physically.